Wednesday, March 7, 2012

one of those days

Today was one of those days where I couldn't get out of bed, so I called out of work and ate cupcakes for breakfast.

thank you, Back in the Day Bakery!
Oddly enough, last week I was staying up til 3 or 4, and then waking up at 6:30 AM every day raring to go. But these past few days, I've been staying up til like, midnight and sleeping in past noon, taking 3 or 4 hour naps, going out for a little bit (yesterday's jaunt included dinner and a Wire session!), and then going back to sleep.

Frustrated with myself today, I literally threw myself out of my bed and cupcake and Downtown Abbey haze, determined to get something going. I tried to start my work blog, but ended up just answering personal emails and updating my resume for a few hours. And then I convinced myself to go to the DMV and get my car registration all straightened out, but, I ended up getting my bangs trimmed.

(Yes, I signed on for at least one more month of face fringe. It has taken a while, but I'm comfortable with them now. I'm not feeling so much like a poser-hipster. I feel more like... an almost hipster.)

And then I spent an hour in the bed sheet section of Target, muttering to myself about whether it'd be better to get the expensive sheets that felt amazing, or their cheaper counter-part of the same color that felt just slightly less amazing, or the patterned sheets that felt nice, but were really pretty, but that I'd probably get tired of in a few months. After an unjustifiably long deliberation, I went with the less expensive counter-part because the color was just slightly better.

I came home, threw the sheets in the washer, and read myself to sleep, because reading is the only thing that keeps my mind settled lately.

I didn't expect the sleep filled, calorie consuming, productivity killing apathy that comes with break ups to hit so soon, but it has. Which is bad timing, considering I was supposed to go back to work this week. (Coincidence?)  

I've been so jittery and awkward when I've gone out lately. And I am in my head more so than ever (yes, it is possible). But it is getting better, even if it is getting better slowly. I get a lot of time to myself, to think and over-analyze and digest, which is nice, even if I am sleeping through most of it. And I have a rock solid (and rock awesome) base of support here who are helping me work through it. Thank god they all have the patience of saints.

I guess, really, there's not a whole lot I'm trying to say with this post, other than I'm dragging ass.

But, ass will be dragged.


bunnymachine said...

"Ass will be dragged" is possibly my new favorite quote. Next time someone tells me to hurry up, I'm responding with that.

0reo said...

A neat trick for bed sheets is to pick up three packs in complementary colors and patterns and swap them around. Never be bored with your bed clothes again!

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